Assalamualaikum, Salma Humaira!

Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah Praise be to Allah! Finally the lil munchkin is out :) It was a long labor, 14 hours to be exact (longer than irfan's) but its all worth it!

It was totally a different experience from the first one, im so glad everything dipermudahkan. Ya Allah now i know all the hardships and meltdowns i went through for the past nine months were meant to prepare me for the nikmat and hikmah during labor. 

Anyways, my labor story was a short one..despite the long labor ( i considered it as long coz i was first induced with a pill inserted into my V on Monday 0130hrs but baby was out the same day 1527hrs ) the entire thing happened so fast i wasnt phobia of the q 'so when's the third one coming?' LOL

I was 2cm dilated for the past two weeks and i find it weird coz after all the hectic spring cleaning to make sure Kiara is clean and shiny (hehe) it stayed at 2 and refused to further dilate.

By then i was a bit cuak considering my gynae is going for a long leave - if i deliver masa dia cuti obviously i wont be comfortable to have another gynae to attend to me kan..

So i discussed w hubs and we plan to induce the baby. Other contributing factors to our decision include:

• My EDD is still few weeks away but lil munchkin is already considered as full term

• I developed vericose vain(s) at the vulva which caused me horror cramps (sampai jalan pun kena seret kaki)

• The pressure from the baby also contributed to the cramps

• As mentioned earlier i have been 2cm dilated for the past few weeks

• I was feeling so heavy and tired coz now i have Irfan to attend to

• Hubs nak kena pi Penang for work soon so he might not be around if i were to be in labor later

Doc instructed for an induce pill to be inserted on Monday morning but my lil instinct says it wont work. True enough, i was feeling so restless the entire night but nothing happened! Still 2cm after subuh. Nurse gave me another insert for me to clear off no. 2. Had my shower, performed Subuh prayer and then midwife came and walked me to the labor room. 

Had my breakie, Doc Wahida came for epidural at 0845hrs, started the induce via IV at 0900hrs and by 1400hrs i was 4cm dilated. I was quite happy with the progress but hubs thought it was quite slow. I tried to sleep but at the same time i wanted to recite some doas and surahs. Since the rest outweighed the intention to recite,i put on my earphones and listened to surah Maryam few times while drinking air zamzam and munching dates in between.

At 1520hrs the midwife came in to give me warm water ( i was already shivering - the epidural effect ) and told me that she had to perform VE coz from the monitor she thinks the baby may have moved closer to the 'way out'. 

She was right i was 8cm dilated. Hubs was quite shock when informed on the progress. Just when the midwife wanted to teach (refresh) me again on the push technique, suddenly she was in panic mode- 'eh alamak!! Jangan push jangan push! Baby nak keluar dah ni..kepit!kepit! Saya call doctor' ------how to kepit mehhhh -__-" i was on epi remember??? Dah sah2 both legs numb (and heavy longlai max) the midwife then moved my kaki into kepit position and placed a pillow on my legs. 

Doc came running took the stairs to level 2 coz lift so lembab, kicked off her heels wore her attire and boots, and sat in front of me ready to sambut. 

I managed to ask hubs to get ready to record the push moments TAPI he had to keep the phone dalam poket cozzzzz x cukup tangan! Midwives chomel2 they need to assist doc and no one to lift and hold my right leg! Yeah hubs penyelamat and he was so nervous haha i can tell he has never been that 'near' to the 'site'!!! Time irfan dulu choms je tengok belakang langsir hihi..

Once the doc dah ready to sambut she asked to push i was like ehh sekarang ke? One time x jadi. One more time - push - and she's out! It took me two push and less than a minute to get her out SubhanAllah only one stitch and no vacuum!

Yeah 1527hrs was the time she decided to greet us with her high pitch voice. The moment they place her on my chest i couldnt hold my tears and it came rolling down my cheeks like nobody's biz mcm air terjun!! It felt so wonderful and i just couldnt explain the nikmat. I couldnt believe i now have a daughter!! Like Daughter for reall!! :) :) :) 

We decided to name her Salma Humaira :) 

So lil Salma was sent to SCN on wednesday coz her bilirubin level was 16.2. I took goat's milk and continue bfeed her Alhamdulillah yesterday it went down to 11.8 and today 9.1. 

Milk production this time around Alhamdulillah OK :) :) I managed to get 2oz, 4oz, and just now 8oz per session for lil Salma's stock for night time at SCN. I really believe goat's milk consumption during pregnancy n post pregnancy is really2 good for your milk production. 

And now im sleepy LOL! Alhamdulillah for the rezeki and i will continue to write again on lil Salma and anything related to my labor experience and checklist(yup i revised the checklist!!!) soon.

Salma Humaira looks like her brother, only her eyes are bigger and hair lebat-er, just like the mother! (Hey it rhymes!) LOL

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Tokwan, Irfan makan Scorpion!

Assalamualaikum!

Hows Ramadhan treating you guys so far?(soalan standard kalau ada 12k followers lol)

I gave up last Thursday, had to finally admit my body cant cope with fasting. As much as i tried, by noon i was already out of focus, half an hour before buka i was already moody, and after buka i was too tired to even attend to irfan and i felt like i was about to pass out right after isya'. I have to consider time spent with Irfan now that his clingy mode is amplified to 'boss level'- as what he always says :p

Anyways, my body doesnt demand chicken chop or grilled lamb or pasta or even nasi berlauk during lunchtime, its just the water that it needs most. A glass or two would be sufficient as long as it is plain water. A preggy woman shouldnt let dehydration happens ok.

I take my sahur mcm biasa every single day coz thats the only time i would eat without feeling guilty (carbs control what? I belasah two plates of rice without fail every morning hehe) and yes layan berbuka mcm orang berpuasa.well energy level depletes because i have to carry extra kgs but Alhamdulillah with the current skipping-fast arrangement, i no longer feel extremely exhausted and moody. Yay to me! :)

Yesterday i made Sayf tried ketam for the first time. And he liked it! Told him its a crab. CRAB SAYANG. He was too excited with the first try he quickly dashed out from the kitchen to search for TokWan and told the grandfather he had Scorpion for lunch HAHAHA what la you anakkk..think he got scorpion crab and lobster all mixed up. So today's lesson would be: know your crab! LOL

Okayy noww im very very excited to announce that our house is almost ready! Yay the reno finally completed, did a 7-hour cleaning w the help of two cleaners (mokcik boyot ni mana boleh dok senyap kan) but gotta get them to clean up one last round before we move in next week :) :) 

Arranged the laundry guys to help send over all the stuff we sent for washing/drycleaning including carseat, matress and anak gajah(dah banyak sgt barang kan haha), same goes to the curtains- they will help deliver and pasang all - all these will be done this saturday. Its going to be a busy saturday for me! Ive actually arranged both delivery to arrive around the same time so that i can manage things in one go BUT i totally forgot i have an appointment w my gynae!nampak gaya kena selit jugak lah. So saturday appointment-laundry and curtain delivery-majlis khatam at MILs. Definitely terlepek lepas tu. Sunday is going to be another round of clean up before i can say 'its good to be back!'

Imagine no prep on hospital bags or even  few hours off for pregnancy massage and pampering time. I just want to settle the house to make it 'a place called home'. I want it to be as comfy as possible, as teratur as possible (thats the skema part in me) and i want everything to be in order and complete set. Akan x duduk diam kalau still ada benda yg missing -_-"

Today im going to usha new bedframe for  the master bedroom. Heard there's a good sale at harvey norman. Ikea's price also boleh tahan cuma leceh sbb nk pusing jauh. Macy's ada promo but lets see..

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Cant believe this saturday's checkup will be the beginning of the weekly scary(at least it is to me) 'poke and prod'!!OMG i super hate the procedure to the point that i'd rather give birth every week(provided ada epi lah haha) than menyerah diri kena VE. Dont.want.to.think.about.it. huwaaaaa!!!

Have a good day!

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Quick update :)

Assalamualaikum! 

Think ive utilized all my energy reserved for this crucial period. Err perhaps the right word here is overused?

I did what i didnt do during my 3rd trimester carrying Sayf last time-- i still cook(well back then i loathe cooking to the max sbb xde skill), i still drive around, watch movies at the cinema (infact going today for transformers :)), mandur for soon-to-finish-reno home sweet home, anndddd still no prep for the lil one! As in zilch!

I remembered back then our hosp bags were ready by the 7th month. Ni apa pun xde. Memang selamba max! But what to do, i guess it comes naturally when 1) you have an active lil kiddo that you hv to attend to (believe me at plus 9kgs and some concentrated weight at the belly, i still do character plays with Sayf, crawling around the house as a cat, dinasour, alien, Ifrit(what?!) hahahah..yea im still active entertaining Sayf. He loves it mucho so why not! Tu yg merangkak tu sbb obviously x boleh lari kan -_-" 2) you've experienced it before you kinda know what to expect 3) energy is well spent at other things (deciding which design/material to choose for curtains?!) LOL

Haih. At one point i just want this seksaness of turning from one side to another side of the bed ends immediately. Backache alert yaw! Yup it'll take me 'snail years' to adjust to the comfortable position.

Cant wait to settle down at our place soon. Did some uplifting to the toilets, and took out all the unnecessary furnitures to make more room for.....new furnitures (in my dreams lah kan) well, we want to keep the house as spacious as possible (talk about babyproofing the hauzz) so yeah no fancy2 furnitures or decos. Just the key items would be sufficient for the time being :)

Sayf is now super clingy. Everynight my shoulder will be his bantal. And he would hug me tightly as if im a bolster. Good to be spending the qualilty time together. Felt so guilty back then for not being able to be there for him when he was smaller. I was blinded by office work, travel excitements, and...yup, the job. The bond is surreal im for ever grateful to Allah SWT for this precious gem. Alhamdulillah he will search for me before anyone else and i think i succeed in reclaiming my position as his number 1 :) (lesser time spent with him back then turned me into an unhappy person because i was seen as the next person to look for- it was a stressful period!) lesson learnt: Family is always First. If your family institution is managed properly insyaAllah the barakah will spill over to your daily activities.

Ok back to the earth as i think ive launched the yadayada-rocket too far LOL

The last time i went for my monthly checkup, lil munchkin has doubled the weight and hm, seemed like heavier than the brother. And Alhamdulillah i still manage to ctrl my weight (belajar dari kesilapannn haha) and watch what i eat..good that i can still fast in this holy month (skipping puasa on wkends coz i need to be the cat, dinosaur, alien etc remember?) plus preggers have the options pun kan. Not that i eat like nobody's biz on wkends, but i just need to be on standby in case im too tired or suddenly i feel super thirsty; i dont want to risk it until the very last minute. Sometimes a cup of water or airkelapa in the afternoon is already sufficient for me to survive until buka puasa. Its all about the need to rehydrate esp when the weather now is super sizzling hot :)

My next checkup will be in two weeks' time, afterwhich i need to frequent my visit once a week until the baby's out. Oh ya in my previous post i did mention about wanting to share my routine throughout this round of pregnancy kan..since dah terbebel pasal benda lain, guess that post  has to wait..hihi..

Okie gotta catch up some sleep before Sayf wakes up! 

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Ramadhan is here!

Assalamualaikum :) 

Alhamdulillah for the rezeki and blessings  from Allah SWT, i made it to this year's Ramadhan.

A beautiful month that ive always look fwd to, a month that im not scared of waking up in the middle of the night coz the shaitaans are all tied up hehe and a month where i will always find peace. It is special that i feel it is so easy to Change as compared to the other months. Well, the other months will give you challenges to make you strong and determined that you will not divert or return to the 'dark' side. If you are able to sail through and meet the next Ramadhan carrying your changes you made in the previous Ramadhan, then Alhamdulillah it is your rezeki. That will be my short term goal. Of course my long term goal is the sustainability kan hehe but i do hope this ultimate dream of mine will come true :)

Anyways, i was all excited about wanting to have sahur with hubs and the inlaws this morning, ( kes berangan nak puasa ) but what happened: i slept throughout and realized its already 630am when i wanted to get ready for sahur Aiyyoh! I wondered why they never wake me up...then i remembered Sayf locked the door before we went to sleep! Double Aiyyoh there LOL

Since terlepas sahur and tak puasa, im already thinking what to cook for iftaar 😅 

On another note, i am planning to share the routines i do throughout my pregnancy. Come to think of it, im more on the skema side rather than the cool/lepak side. Will blog about it soon :)

Since i am planning for a looooooong maternity leave, ill be writing more often post-delivery (insyaAllah, hope all goes well Ameen) just to keep me sane during confinement and to share any updates so that i dont feel left out by the end of 2014 haha. Nevermind if i no longer have readers but bottom line i just want to make myself feel better :p

Salam Ramadhan to all and till the next post! 

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CrazyBeautiful Errr... Cravings?

Alhamdulillah! Half way through the pregnancy made me realize life is sooo beyond everything and anything you could ever imagine. Being pregnant for the second time doesnt guarantee you the same sickness and routine throughout.

So im just gonna list down things that i felt so off from my expectations. Some were totally weird, some were unthinkable and some were really nonsense stuff. Just for me and my kids to look or read back when im 20 or 30 years down the road hehe..

During my first trimester, i loved having loadsa rice, fried fish and veges for lunch the first few weeks. No appetite for red meat/poultry at all. I stuffed as much as i cld coz i kinda expect sickness to kick in @ week 8. Boy it was unexpected! It came 2 weeks earlier -_-" it started with morning sickness and later prolonged to all-day sickness. I was trying hard to manage the situation but failed miserably. To the point i had to take one week leave and stayed at mom's house coz i just couldnt spare my energy to even see and rest at my own place. Yup, dragged Sayf along!

I would wake up 4ish every morning without fail and i'd have digestive biscuits to manage my sickness. Sometimes if i missed the routine, it would be a nightmare throughout the day. Three weeks later i was rushed to the emergency unit coz i was so dehydrated. Spent my two nights in the hosp for drips and literally begged my gynae to discharge me on Day 3 coz i was so worried of Sayf althought by right i have to make sure im fit enough to take care of him. Makan minum dia, tidur dia..sigh i guess moms are all like that kan...

I had a very bad stomach cramps coz ive been vomitting like nobody's biz, until theres nothing left to vomit out!

Took me quite a while to try and test stuff that my stomach/body/hormone wont reject; it started of with kicap masin used for sushi after weeks of surviving w cream crackers and digestive biscuits.

And then cherry tomatoes! Bananas were also my fav, i would eat two or three of 'em (big ones!) in a day.

Weird stuff like gold rings and jewelleries are totally whaaattttt? Not a fan of gold stuff before so yeah i totally think its weird..

My lil best friend Eczema decided to pay me a visit for a good four months; the conditon of my left hand was so horrible i had to hide it most of the time!! T__T Alhamdulillah it went off and now my skin is back to normal :)

There's this one time where i would only listen to Maher Zain and no one else, and i would cry and cry and cry listening to his songs (!) emo much?

During Sayf's time i loved to play sudoku, but this time around i had my heart tied to candycrush! Thank God it only lasted for a couple of weeks LOL

Not a fan of plain rice, in fact i hardly eat rice nowadays, except kalau nasi kaler2. I'd prefer bread and noodles over rice. Not a fan of dinner either. Mungkin sebab dah x banyak sgt space nak sumbat makanan..

Besides all the above, i noticed my cravings now made its way to cod fish. That freaking expensive fish???? Gosh i should bill my child after he/she's born hahaha but really. The bestest freshest cod fish ever tasted was at cocotei. Its been almost a year since i last had my jap foodie there, then one day i suggested the place to MM. Ive totally forgotten how good the taste was; the moment i started chewing, it strucked me! And now as if my baby's like 'dont look back mama, next time just march to the nearest jap restaurant to get MY fix ok'

Next, of course the Piano..yezza this actually came before cod fish. I was *this* close to buying!!! Glad that the craving was tamed by cod fish haiyyyoooo

And did i mention about sotong sumbat? (Ketupat sotong) well hear(read) this: my first experience w the pantai timur dish was 12 years ago when Khairina made a few sotongs and asked me to come over her place. I was like hmm, why the sotong is swimming inside a white kuah? The taste was a bit sweet but i liked it, considering its my first time! And 12 years down the road ive never came across sotong sumbat kat mana2 dah. And this is totally unexpected- this pregnancy made me text Khairina and bluntly told her i WANT THAT SOTONG SUMBAT CAN YOU MAKE SOME FOR ME. Gosh. 12 years ago punya benda pon boleh teringin ke?

So last wkend she sent the dish over OMG it was the bestest ultimate craving satisfied!!!!!!!! I had three sotongs,good enough as my dinner but she actually gave me 10(or more) swimming sotongs! Haha..brought to the ofc the next day amd even the fussiest kakak loved the sotong sumbat so much she upload it in her FB LOL.

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Alhamdulillah i managed to cook for Sayf and hubs almost every weekend, i have the energy to do groceries shopping and marketing all by myself, and Alhamdulillah my energy level has doubled from pre-preg time. I know this(energy level) will only last till next month but im just gonna maximize it God willing.

For now im just going to embrace this preggers feeling (layan perut besar, penguin walks, tido nganga sbb keletihan) coz this is also part of rezeki. Alhamdulillah.

I will continue with whatever i have in mind about my pregnancy, preparation etc soon :) gotta rush for Asar prayer! 

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Sleepless Night..

Assalamualaikum! 

Not because of the active lil one but my thoughts now are running wild on the fate of the people who were on the MH370 flight kl-beijing. Yes as im typing this, its been more than 24 hours since the plane had gone missing from the radar after two hours of flying.

Back in the days when flights and airplanes were seen as a medium/transport to balik kampung, ive always had this fear of flying. Coz its not an everyday thing. Once a year, or maybe even once in a blue moon! My imaginations were beyond everything i could imagine now and everytime i board the plane, my heart beats like a million times in a sec no kidding. Even the slightest turbulence would make me turn white instantly!

I slowly overcome my fears when my job requires me to travel. By flight. And we're talking about overseas trip, min 2 hours in flight at least once every two months.

Only after my five years of service i was able to finally eliminate the imaginations that used to run wild throughout the flights ive been on. The what ifs, the oh nos, the im so gonna be dead! Im now able to relax, and when there's turbulence i'd calm myself by saying its just awan tebal that the plane has to pass through.

It took me that long to be and look normal in flights!......

Yesterday's news was indeed a shocking one. MAS, to me, has been one of the most reliable airlines ive known. And the preception ive always had- there's nothing that cld go wrong if you're flying with MAS. They potrayed the guarantee that you'll definitely reach your destination safe and sound.

But somehow fate, qada' and qadar - things that i sometimes overlook, they're often overshadowed by the perception set/created. Always.always tawakkal tu'alALLAH. Everything is in Allah's hands. This should serve as a reminder for me from now on.

My du'as and prayers are with the family members, relatives and friends of those on MH370. I couldnt imagine being in their situation right now. May Allah grant you strength to face this dugaan. Ameen Ameen Ameen.

2014

Assalamualaikum! 

Im writing again after aeons because i want to do justice to my second one InsyaAllah (yes I am pregnant!) since i wrote everything about Sayf Irfan on his monthly development up until the day he was born, plus some useful info i jot down on my confinement yada yada yada before pooooof! I went missing LOL!

I think this round i will be focusing more on my pregnancy journey coz definitely i want to be able to read again my experience handling a four year old kid w extravaganza sickness few years down the road, or maybe when in pregnant with a third one perhaps?

So far Alhamdulillah ive survived the forst trimester (will talk about this later) and cruising into 2nd trimester i hope it wont be as bad..i should enjoy every single moment of it right? (Now thinking of a lovely place for babymoon hahah)

I will drop by and write again soon. Doesnt matter if i no longer have readers around but if i do, hola peeps and stay tuned! ;)

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